I am a mid-20’s psychology major. I spent the majority of my life with a personal body image that was so negative that it often impaired my day to day life. I would miss out on events because I couldn’t stand to leave the house, afraid to have anyone see how I looked or acted. There were days when it was so bad I couldn’t bring myself to go to work because I was embarrassed of who I was.
I spent years in a toxic relationship that I couldn’t convince myself to leave because of my drastically negative opinion of myself. Convinced no one else would be able to love me I stayed with this person, until one day in the fall of 2009. It all ended, and it ended at his hands, but it was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. I spent the next three years changing my attitude about myself, and after spending those years in therapy and rebuilding relationships I’ve come to realize I’m not that bad. In fact, sometimes I’m pretty freakin’ awesome.
There are still days when I don’t like myself though, and many days when I don’t like the state of the world and the message that media sends to people, so I decided to start this blog. I know that one little blog isn’t going to save the world, but at least I know that my thoughts and opinions are out there, and maybe one day it will help someone else. Even one person is enough. Hell, even if that one person is me.